2025/08/03
Daisy
Daisy
i just finished up my last gig in Atlanta for a while. There are a lot to like about the city. There is so much art here. Everyone is eager to talk about the music they are making or their latest short film. Other citys like Nashville or Savanah have a similar vibe to them, but Atlanta art is embued with a cirtan southern hospatality. Jazz learned on Fake Books, played on stolen keyboards, FL cracks, 808s with no time for heartbreak all heard through your apartment walls.
i have'nt lived in or realy near Atlanta for a wille, work keeps kept me there for most of my week for the last few years. i don't have any interest in living in or near Atlanta any time soon. For starters, i don't think i can afford to live there. Rent is crazy and pay in the city for the work that i enjoy doing has stayed pretty stagnant. Many folks work 2 gigs to pay bills. Everyone sells some kind of dope.
It is 103F in this photo
As were getting closer to our move out date our cousins and neighbors are stoping by to see us off.
i think the best advice i've gotten over the past few years is 'eat your veg'. imo, the move fast and break things mentality of the 00's fucked up the way we relate with learning. Speaking personaly, there is so much focus on just getting somehing out there that it's now a point of pride to not understand how it works. for me, this manafest as being suck watching tuts. on youtube as apposed to sitting down, reading a book, and doing my own projects. Learning is one of the best things you can do to better your life but doing it propperly takes time. Slow down and eat your veg, have a compleate meal.
i'm leaving the south soon. There are still so many things that i wanted to do and see but with things going the way they are; my families saftey comes first. We (three racoons in a trench coat) have a plan in mind and everything is working out for us but the sence of dread still lingers.
Went to a party in the city last week. DJ was only palying emo hits.
One of the best A1's in Atlanta
Doing things is hard, doing things with people you like is a little bit easier. In my funk of wanting to start something, i talked some of my close freinds into working on a project with me. Time will tell if anything will come from it, but it's nice to feel in motion again
Its spring time here in the south, flowers bloom as pollen fills the air. i figure the season is reaponceable my eagerness to change things in my life. i've stoped drinking for april, i've started looking back into uni. programs, i've updated my resume and started the job search again.
Part of my issue is i don't know what i want. [redacted] tells me that not knowing is part of the path but its a way of thinking that im strugleing to emplement. i get in my own head when trying to from plans, leading to inaction and stagnation.
Thing aren't gonna get any better sitting around doing nothing and waiting for someone to point me in a direction. i need to take more photos and start keeping my camera on me.
These days it's getting harder and harder to find something to smile about. Seeing these folks march down the streets of Atlanta put some light back in me.
Luck and god are the same thing i think.
Their has been a wave of despair wasing over me. It feel s like no one wants to take a proactive step in imporving the lives of those surrounding them. i might jut be turning into a bitter old man as the wold turns to cynicism and leaves basic human deciency behind
i've been thinking a lot about e-readers. Back in middle/high school i obtained a kindle keyboard and loved it. It had a 3g cell service making it the prefect fanfic reader on the go.
i see a lot of graff on my way to shows. All sorts of folks leaving their tracks on the forrest floor, awaiting layers plaster to cover them, or a powersprayer to wash them away.
i think a lot about shadow libs. Back when i was in collage i had a professer introduce to what was book.zz which later became the z library and from there i spun off into searching for more of these undergroudnd book sites. The concept of a dark library; a place filled with limitless informaton is so cool to me. As someone that has trouble focusing on the same thing for too long, the abality to endlessly start new books allowed me to get through more than i could at my local librairy. There is also a preservation argument for shadow libs but i wont get into that here. If your a looking for a new site i recomend for the clear net and the Z-lib if you're already useing tor
been thinking a lot about travle. When i was younger my family moved yearly. When we moved to REDACTED and stayed here for a while i felt that their was something that i was missing year after year. i don't love the process of moving, the whole process is super stressful and cost sooo much damn money. But there is someting nice about being to be a new persion again every once and a wile.
i got a basic webscraper up and running. Right now it has a super limited scope but im working on it. Iterating has been fun, i'm trying to take the time and add comments if only for my own sake later.
i've been wanting to get out hikeing again. When i was
ive been picking up go and its been fun! Using the colly framework clicks with my brain in a way that python's Beautiful Soup. In the next few weeks i'm planning on working on a basic manga scraper ( RIP tachiyomi ) that i can embed into a discord bot. i think the end goal of this would be to have a local version of every book requested, building my own shadow library for me and my freinds. Baby steps till then tho.
Everyone should try camping at least a few times.
I don't know how everyone got themselves in such a damn hurry. The way hustle culture has invaded almost every aspect of us/american life really brings me down. When telling folks about the art and programing work that i do, the topic of monitazation tends to come up. i have no poroblem with people making a living off of their work, but the idea of 'grinding' does not sound fulfilling.
tugaloo state park was a trip and a half
